paradigm shift?

لَهُ مُعَقِّبَاتٌ مِّن بَيْنِ يَدَيْهِ وَمِنْ خَلْفِهِ يَحْفَظُونَهُ مِنْ أَمْرِ اللّهِ إِنَّ اللّهَ لاَ يُغَيِّرُ مَا بِقَوْمٍ حَتَّى يُغَيِّرُواْ مَا بِأَنْفُسِهِمْ وَإِذَا أَرَادَ اللّهُ بِقَوْمٍ سُوءًا فَلاَ مَرَدَّ لَهُ وَمَا لَهُم مِّن دُونِهِ مِن وَالٍ (13:11)

(thinking that] he has hosts of helpers-both such as can be perceived by him and such as are hidden from him ^[24] -that could preserve him from whatever God may have willed. ^[25] Verily, God does not change men's condition unless they change their inner selves; ^[26] and when God wills people to suffer evil [in consequence of their . own evil deeds], there is none who could avert it: for they have none who could protect them from Him. -

thank god! somebody in the cabinet noticed that "Malays are lagged on education".And Assoc.Prof Dr.fadzil said it might traced to the lack of support and low involvement of Malay parents on their children education.

im not playing a racist card here.me,myself is a malay (ok i admit,ive been fantasizing of becoming a japanese).i hope this news will enlightened us,the MALAYS.no matter how much the government subsidized or granted us special rights,if we possessed this kind of attitude,we'll never be able to be the front leader/player.ok guys!paradigm shift needed here!..ayuuhhh!

READ [1] in the name of thy Sustainer

اقْرَأْ بِاسْمِ رَبِّكَ الَّذِي خَلَقَ (96:1)
READ ^[1] in the name of thy Sustainer

my research and thesis are inspired by this ayat. MasyaAlLah, this ayat shows how AlLah loves knowledge and it is mentioned in the very first revelation. Thus, the importance of grasping the early literacy can not be denied especially among Moslems. And when I faced difficulty especially during my thesis I believed in the word of AlLah :

إِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا (94:6)
verily, with every hardship comes ease!

yes.i found solace & peace in Quran.Let us be your believer until the end of the day.

summary

"summary is the part when you are tired of thinking"

ok ok.i told u before, i wont watch downloaded house in my notebook.ill watch on AXN instead.but i cant resist it!last night i spent my time watching 3 episodes back-to-back!!OMG it was too sinful.neglecting my thesis and lavishing my time with house md.and resulting me being guilty as charged man for the whole next day.(this is what happened when i didnt have any internet connection.i fed myself more outrageously)

my husband left for penang this morning.have meeting & business deal with the shipping co.at first,he asked me to follow.but when i said,im afraid it is too hot and i ended up suffering bad migraine,eventually he retracted back.if we are going to stay in a cool place (read:hotel) it is ok then.but, you know,penang is a neighbour of kedah.and of course he, as a filial son will stay in his parents' house in kedah. maybe after the summer end and the winter waving in,ill follow him to kedah.and he know how bad am suffering when the migraine attacking me.thanks dearie for understanding me and not forcing me to come along.

on the other hands,more abuse cases reported.naahhh!!i hate those abuser. cheapskate! lousy!loser!if u r really good at hitting child,lets try hitting the adults.and what makes me feel irked the reaction from the neighbours.WTH after the dead you barking about what u heard : crying,screaming so forth.i just dont understand.malaysian can be so kepohci (noisy) at the wrong place at the wrong time but to do some reasonable and just action we will keep silent and ignored.see the pattern there.ulu yam and now seri kembangan case.and both cases are done by the partner in crime who is jobless.please find better job rather than murderer abuser.

ok.yesterday i bought another dubai abaya.and again my husband : "WHAT?ABAYA LAGI?/more abaya?"i said yes.and he continued : "DUBAI tak nak beli ke?/why dont u just buy dubai herself".it fall on a deaf ears,darl.whatever you said is so sweet to my ears (yikes) since ill make a payment using your monies.luv ya so much!im telling you.before,i just bought 1 piece of abaya/jilbab in a year for 3 consecutive years (this is the average amount) and now i took a revenge and meraban bershopping..hahahahaha

this abaya named farah.i love those furry2..ekekek(i cilok this pic from sis suhaila's fb.since im buying it and not receive it yet,hope u dont mind me sharing yours here)

another things:ill spend my weekends at my parents'.balik kampung la gamaknya.and the internet might be as slow as a snail (or even slower) and i cant play my games and sending gifts.ok im an avid gamer.and my husband said he didnt know he is married one. muahhaha. now you know la kan abang!i said i never neglected my duties because of games.i played it during leisure time.again he said : "is it?why there is always screen of RC?".and i grinning!it is automatic games ok.just feed the staff and look at t he trade.thats all.and it just took less than 5 min.and he stopped when I started to bring on the stadium Astro games issue.ekekkekeke

ok reader.thanks for following my blog.it might be a simple notation of my life.or me raging civil war here but i know that we are reading community and we love to know what happened to each others!see ya on the next entry !

nama

before i got pregnant with Nuha my first child , I prayed that if I got a girl ill name her Khadijah and if a boy ill name him Muhammad. Then,Nuha born and she was named Nuha Khadijah with Nuha was given by her walid and Khadijah from me.

In a relaxing evening,Id chat with my husband.If we are going to have a son after this, I want to name him with Muhammad and Yusuf.I felt in love with these prophets. Muhammad s.a.w for his izzah and yusuf for his handsome face (aci ke?).Since,my husband wants all of our children to have N as initial , i reserved that for him. (he likes the name Nourredine--->i want it to spell it like this.barulah glams gitew.anyway Nourredine is after syeikh nuruddin al banjari and syeikh nourredine al atha).

plus i told him,after this i want to deliver either in private hosp or overseas.i want him to see how his wife battling her own life for his child.yeah.he never been by my side on all of my labour.first he was in egypt.second he was not allowed by dr.aiman ( she said "muhammad you better stay outside.you already looked pale"and yes he was trembling as told by my friend,kak gee).and no 3 , the nurses forgot to call him to come to the labour room.i guess he'll fainted to see me since the contraction was maximum and i sort of begging for life.telling you!no epidural no painkillers but added with pitocyn.Masyaallah,I thank allah for gave me such strngth for gave birth to all my child normally (SVD).

hope that for no 4 , he'll be by my side.ok.im not expecting ok.just a wish for the future. ngehehhehe

red wok

today having lunch at red wok restaurant in bangi seksyen 7. A CHINESE MUSLIM halal restaurant ! OMG ! my haven!my dream!this is what im waiting for.the food is superb! the price is reasonable.1 portion is enough for 2 persons!we have plain rice + buttered shrimps + chickem kungpao + broccoli with oyster sauce + carrot juice + mocha blended and it is rm48++.(piccas of foodies cant be uploaded.line too slow.maybe and earthquake somewhere in malaysia.will do it later)

chicken kung pao

broccoli

buttered prawn

plain rice pon mau amek ka?

support the business of muslim friend!it is good when we dine in a halal restaurant of a muslim friends!
be a fan here

sleep

i rarely have the luxurious night sleep.at first,i'd have to stay up writing my academic papers and thesis.eventually,it changed to imsoniac nights.my sleeping time is somehow lagging 6 hours behind which make me follows egypt's.during my stay there,i was lagged 6 hours too and i didnt know which country with GMT-4 (our education system offered geography as an elective and rarely offered for science stream students.furthermore,i was not too ambitious secondary school student who aimed to score 20A's.i ended up ignoring some enjoyable and fun facts about our nature and earth)

and now.i lost weight (ok to certain extend i love it.without rigorous exercise i lost 1 kg per week but when the scale couldnt stop dropping i guess there is something seriously affecting me).besides i look pale.plus i look tiring.admit it im in full distress situation.yeah.i really stress to write this.i couldnt remember any statistical thingy ive learnt!im blank.and i felt a bit helpless.

and the methodology is what killing me softly.why on earth im doing mixed method with quasi experiment?why?Why?yeah im too obsessed with creswell's idea.darn it!and yeah those intellectual from deaf education and the land of the tulips drove me to this.harrison,easterbrook,knoors..inspired me to survive.and i still survived all the procedure.

my colleagues said my writing is too in-depth.too detail.i seriously didnt know WTH im writing there.it just flows naturally and when it comes to this stats part im stucked (like a pickles at my teeth)

oo allah just give me some mental strngthness.some motivation.to be free man again! and this coming 23 is a year after my uncle passed away.may AlLah blessed him for his good doing & kindness.

noted

1. kita tidak perlu bersila di atas kerusi makan.apatah lagi di atas meja makan.harap maklum.
2. kita harus elakkan merokok di tempat awam nak2 kedai makan.sbb ada kanak2,bayi atau ibu mengandung yng tak pasal2 terpaksa menyedut asap rokok itu.jika mau juga,pergi jauh2 skit.
3. umat islam diharamkan minum arak.sbb banyak mudaratnya.
4. umat islam diharamkan berzina.utk menjaga nasab.
5. jika memakai hijab,labuhkan hingga ke dada.apa yg ada di dada wanita sehingga diarah dilabuhkan?takkan tulang selangka kot!atau tulang rusuk.pikio2 la ye.(apsal banyak sangat hijab yg dijual tak tutup dada?singkat bebeno)
6. jika surau penuh (nk2 waktu magrib) elakkan bersolek,berbedak,potpet atas sejadah sesudah solat.sila beredar saja.dan kalau boleh percepatkan proses doa2 anda.mungkin kelewatan anda boleh mengakibatkan waktu solat luput pd org lain.selain itu,boleh solat tanpa telekung atau sejadah.bukan syarat sah.cukup sekdar pakaian yg menutup aurat & tempat solat yg bersih.
7. blog anda menggambarkan anda.
8. ramai org suka menghentam guna internet sebab anonymosity.cuba berdepan kalau berani.