my research fields involved special children. betcha! they are awesome! it teaches me to be grateful with what ALLAH gives me. i also met great Deaf who really makes me so determined in my life. One Deaf lady is doing her PhD in UM and alumnus of Gallaudet Univ. in America (hey,that's the prestigious school for deaf studies!).
if they can do it, why cant we?
Friday, December 10, 2010
Saturday, December 4, 2010
bun in an oven?
im waiting for my viva.and i received positive feedback from Prof. L in the Netherlands on being my future SV for my doctoral.and i am thinking of applying permanent with U*M
and my husband has been offered by Kedah government to set up a marketing centre for IKS products.means that it is easier to stay in northern area.My husband asked me to apply permanent job in U*M and doing my doctoral there. But he asked me to wait and rest for at least half years before proceeding my study. AND he hinted for the 4th child.actually he said this for 4 times.
deep inside,yes it sadden me.i have my own dream.and it is actually 15% completed to be reality.and we are still negotiating on this.
ALLAH,please guide me.
and my husband has been offered by Kedah government to set up a marketing centre for IKS products.means that it is easier to stay in northern area.My husband asked me to apply permanent job in U*M and doing my doctoral there. But he asked me to wait and rest for at least half years before proceeding my study. AND he hinted for the 4th child.actually he said this for 4 times.
deep inside,yes it sadden me.i have my own dream.and it is actually 15% completed to be reality.and we are still negotiating on this.
ALLAH,please guide me.
Friday, December 3, 2010
trivial & substantial
ok.let me myself clear.the following rant is not intended to hurt anyone.it is general discussion.it is my little knowledge ALLAH gave me through my humble learning from ustaz2 & ustazah.WARNING: if you are sensitive dont read.i use the humour approach on this issue.so that you wont be burden reading it.happy reading!!
i give you two condition.
let we slowly delve into this matter by answering these questions:
1) which one is more important?
2) which one is involving major impact and judgment in Islam?
if your answer is 1 = excellent! you know what matter most
but if you answer 2 = ok. dont you have any other important thing to do *or at least to ask? or to think?
proceed with analysing
no 1 = woman menstrual cycles and nifas and wiladah are among important things that we should make ourselves very clear and understand it deeply.the reason: it is correlated with the whole of your life.
you might ask? how is it so?i have regular menses every months.
i will said,it is important to know too.because youll never know when your auntie menses will going crazy and cycling all through the month.
haidh,nifas and wiladah are too much related to our ibadah. when you want to perform solah, you must be clean from haidh,nifas & wiladah.the same goes to fasting,hajj & umrah.if your auntie M suddenly going mad and cycling non-stop..wait!! dont easily said it is istihadhah.
besides calculating the cycle, you have to see the colors of your bleeding. if you are really sure it is not haidh you must perform solah and jeng jeng jeng ...proceed to the next level ------>
and also sexual intercourse with your husband.if you are having istihadhah, your husband has right and not haram for having sex with you.and this blood issue extends to divorce & iddah.talaq is done if you havent have any jimak with your wife and she has her menses (the reason: so that she will not be preggy after you divorce her and prolonged the iddah).iddah,on the other hands, 3 times of suci from haidh.
ok now.how is your perception about your menses.complicated isnt it?it DOES surely involved those haram,halal issues right?
analysing no 2
what colors my stockin *(socks) should be?
first of all.socks issue is khilaf.imam hanafi said it is no harm of exposing your feet.ok we going deeper.
other imam said feet should be covered.it doesnt matter using what.it can be by lowering your clothes so that your feet is hiding or wear socks.in islam,this is what we call the flexibility.but since we are in malaysia, mostly followed mazhab syafiee, we are required to cover the feet.but why asking colors? honestly, i havent think about it.when my mental awareness digesting the info from those series of kuliyyah,i know the clothes should not be tight and thin.so i wear a thick sock which is of course didnt show my skin colors.in fact i wear it in a beige *which is considered as skin colours in clothes term.
and my q: does it involves major hukum here?
the answer is up to you.it is khilafiyah.you can choose it.i cant stop you from choosing your choice.and so do mine.
do you know that, bani israel is a follower who burden with heavy syariat?why?because they keep asking trivial things and burdening themselves unnecessarily when there is an easy way stated by ALLAH.read surah al baqarah.you will know how their attitude is.
as for me : ISLAM is rahmah.it is a very easy religion.it doesnt burden the followers.and why must we wasting ourselves thinking and discussing something trivial whereas lot of major things we have to think and do?divert those energy by preaching and reaching 75% malaysian muslim who dont perform solah rather than indulging on the khilafiyah issues.learn some awlawiyyah.together,we create biah solehah!
wallahualam.may ALLAH pardon me for all my wrongdoings.
notes: this is not an ijtihad.it is my approach on telling my dearest sis & bro which one is more important
i give you two condition.
- on women's bloody issue (no pun intended!)-all that menses (haidh), postpartum bleeding (nifas) and wiladah.
- what colors my stockin *(OMK! i didnt remember how to spell it in english) should be?
let we slowly delve into this matter by answering these questions:
1) which one is more important?
2) which one is involving major impact and judgment in Islam?
if your answer is 1 = excellent! you know what matter most
but if you answer 2 = ok. dont you have any other important thing to do *or at least to ask? or to think?
proceed with analysing
no 1 = woman menstrual cycles and nifas and wiladah are among important things that we should make ourselves very clear and understand it deeply.the reason: it is correlated with the whole of your life.
you might ask? how is it so?i have regular menses every months.
i will said,it is important to know too.because youll never know when your auntie menses will going crazy and cycling all through the month.
haidh,nifas and wiladah are too much related to our ibadah. when you want to perform solah, you must be clean from haidh,nifas & wiladah.the same goes to fasting,hajj & umrah.if your auntie M suddenly going mad and cycling non-stop..wait!! dont easily said it is istihadhah.
besides calculating the cycle, you have to see the colors of your bleeding. if you are really sure it is not haidh you must perform solah and jeng jeng jeng ...proceed to the next level ------>
and also sexual intercourse with your husband.if you are having istihadhah, your husband has right and not haram for having sex with you.and this blood issue extends to divorce & iddah.talaq is done if you havent have any jimak with your wife and she has her menses (the reason: so that she will not be preggy after you divorce her and prolonged the iddah).iddah,on the other hands, 3 times of suci from haidh.
ok now.how is your perception about your menses.complicated isnt it?it DOES surely involved those haram,halal issues right?
analysing no 2
what colors my stockin *(socks) should be?
first of all.socks issue is khilaf.imam hanafi said it is no harm of exposing your feet.ok we going deeper.
other imam said feet should be covered.it doesnt matter using what.it can be by lowering your clothes so that your feet is hiding or wear socks.in islam,this is what we call the flexibility.but since we are in malaysia, mostly followed mazhab syafiee, we are required to cover the feet.but why asking colors? honestly, i havent think about it.when my mental awareness digesting the info from those series of kuliyyah,i know the clothes should not be tight and thin.so i wear a thick sock which is of course didnt show my skin colors.in fact i wear it in a beige *which is considered as skin colours in clothes term.
and my q: does it involves major hukum here?
the answer is up to you.it is khilafiyah.you can choose it.i cant stop you from choosing your choice.and so do mine.
do you know that, bani israel is a follower who burden with heavy syariat?why?because they keep asking trivial things and burdening themselves unnecessarily when there is an easy way stated by ALLAH.read surah al baqarah.you will know how their attitude is.
as for me : ISLAM is rahmah.it is a very easy religion.it doesnt burden the followers.and why must we wasting ourselves thinking and discussing something trivial whereas lot of major things we have to think and do?divert those energy by preaching and reaching 75% malaysian muslim who dont perform solah rather than indulging on the khilafiyah issues.learn some awlawiyyah.together,we create biah solehah!
wallahualam.may ALLAH pardon me for all my wrongdoings.
notes: this is not an ijtihad.it is my approach on telling my dearest sis & bro which one is more important
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Happy Belated Birhday, Nafeesah
17 Oktober 2009 , my 3rd child, was born at 0022 in hospital sungai buloh.we named her Nafeesah Aqeelah , in honor to sayyidah Nafeesah, grandchildren of Rasulullah saw and Aqeelah means person with brain.
during my pregnancy, i never gave up.i lost my laptops & my academic certs (with all the participation cert during conferences,smeinar etc) when she was 7 months on my utero. i lost all my theses. i didnt have the latest back up . am losing my journals. and ALLAH knew how suffered i am. i cant help myself to dua, the thief will losing his hands & feet for that. just few days before she was born, i went to school, completed my observation,interviews & intervention sessions. and a day before my blood transfusion i still in the school to collect my data. i was so determined.
during my pregnancy, i never gave up.i lost my laptops & my academic certs (with all the participation cert during conferences,smeinar etc) when she was 7 months on my utero. i lost all my theses. i didnt have the latest back up . am losing my journals. and ALLAH knew how suffered i am. i cant help myself to dua, the thief will losing his hands & feet for that. just few days before she was born, i went to school, completed my observation,interviews & intervention sessions. and a day before my blood transfusion i still in the school to collect my data. i was so determined.
thats nafeesah.an hour after her birth with over-jovial walid who missed to witness her birth
thats nafeesah now.after a year!HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DR.NAFEESAH AL HAFIZAH (inshaallah biiznillah)
(yes.succsesful person was groomed in this way.put the expectation and csay it to your kids)
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
no reality tv no
i hate watching reality shows.too dramatic and too many teary eyes!
how can i stand watching a contestant who joined the lose weight program but crying for being too tired doing work out?then why on the first place you join it?exercising is utmost important job on losing weight and youre crying because too tired of doing it? ARGHH!! you made me losing my mind!
how can i stand watching a contestant who joined the lose weight program but crying for being too tired doing work out?then why on the first place you join it?exercising is utmost important job on losing weight and youre crying because too tired of doing it? ARGHH!! you made me losing my mind!
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Memoir of the Gamers
Ive been playing computer games at the age of 15. It all started when my uncle, who was just graduated from Mc Gill Univ in Canada (Comp Sc. degree) stayed with us for the earliest months upon his graduation. The first game was Fifa 98. Which was at that time was deemed as superb,magnificient and wonder with all the 3D graphics
Fifa 98
During my undergrad in MMU, with all the hyper IT facilities, again I indulged on MIRC.not to be involved chatting anonymously with stranger which in return is anonymous or fake or you'll never knew the truth identities.but i joined a quiz channel.the bot gave the questions and the winner was the fastest given the answer.i was ranked among top 5.and for God sake , i was using a 'kreeping' as a nickname.psycho isnt'it?and at that time i already wear the long hijab and actively involved with muslim student associations.LOL
MIRC : Does it bring the memories?
Then,the revolution of Yahoo Messenger.Again,I spent my time playing games there.Started from the Scrabbles and joined the Fuzzy warm Feeling room, then moved to the one like the BookWorm and word games.I played almost everything except the games involved strategy and war something like that.
And while using Facebook,I addicted to Restaurant City.LOL!Luckily it doesnt demand too much time as player can start the shift and the game will be opened accordingly.
My Restaurant , Lazis at Restaurant City
yet,i still have my life!
Fifa 98Then, i addicted to the game which i cant recall its name.It came with me as a hunter or savager completed with guns and ammo.i complete dthe highest level when i defeated a big gigantic man with the body of crab.below is the likeliest screen of the games i played.
During my undergrad in MMU, with all the hyper IT facilities, again I indulged on MIRC.not to be involved chatting anonymously with stranger which in return is anonymous or fake or you'll never knew the truth identities.but i joined a quiz channel.the bot gave the questions and the winner was the fastest given the answer.i was ranked among top 5.and for God sake , i was using a 'kreeping' as a nickname.psycho isnt'it?and at that time i already wear the long hijab and actively involved with muslim student associations.LOL
MIRC : Does it bring the memories?At the same time, I played The Sims.And my desktop often jammed because of the high graphic demands from it
Then,the revolution of Yahoo Messenger.Again,I spent my time playing games there.Started from the Scrabbles and joined the Fuzzy warm Feeling room, then moved to the one like the BookWorm and word games.I played almost everything except the games involved strategy and war something like that.
And while using Facebook,I addicted to Restaurant City.LOL!Luckily it doesnt demand too much time as player can start the shift and the game will be opened accordingly.
My Restaurant , Lazis at Restaurant Cityyet,i still have my life!
Thursday, September 2, 2010
what's now , namewee?
we just celebrated 53rd Merdeka day.but the spirit of it was smeared by several racist remarks in our country.let me put this way.i viewed these racist remarks as rare and isolated cases.altho there were somehow indicated rapid surge on this uncivilized act.
now,namewee is being arrested under Sedition Act.the reason is clear.if people said this is unfair, "why is only him.not the headmistress?" i would simply said : "he already given chance 3 years back when he insulted ISLAM and Malay.and doing it for second time for what ever the reason is totally unacceptable." if people arguing " SO,the headmistress can do it.but not Namewee" my logic answer would bewhy must the racism remarks repay with the same one?it wouldnt help either.it will create more racial tension & hatred (true isn't?)
my clear conscience regarding this Namewee issue is ; he was going overboard this time.because this is his 2nd time (or more?am not sure) for purposely doing an act of insulting other races.if he didnt satisfy for example with TNB or the headmistress, it is totally wrong to fight back with the racism remarks.No matter what,condoning bad behaviour in return to the bad behaviour is totally a state of mind from sick people.
and it is more sickening if what he lambasted is about ISLAM.and i read the translation of his songs , he insulting KPM.whats wrong with him? have you ever heard "kerana nyamuk seekor, sekelambu dibakar?" i sniffed a sense of arrogant here.if you really and badly want to fight for justice , do it wisely.write a letter to any editorial instead.
for those out there,who really think you are just people & want to uphold the equality , respect and justice , be aware : never ever to condone any racism , whether fully, or partially.it is either rascism or non-racism.sadly,it is easier said than done.
now,namewee is being arrested under Sedition Act.the reason is clear.if people said this is unfair, "why is only him.not the headmistress?" i would simply said : "he already given chance 3 years back when he insulted ISLAM and Malay.and doing it for second time for what ever the reason is totally unacceptable." if people arguing " SO,the headmistress can do it.but not Namewee" my logic answer would bewhy must the racism remarks repay with the same one?it wouldnt help either.it will create more racial tension & hatred (true isn't?)
my clear conscience regarding this Namewee issue is ; he was going overboard this time.because this is his 2nd time (or more?am not sure) for purposely doing an act of insulting other races.if he didnt satisfy for example with TNB or the headmistress, it is totally wrong to fight back with the racism remarks.No matter what,condoning bad behaviour in return to the bad behaviour is totally a state of mind from sick people.
and it is more sickening if what he lambasted is about ISLAM.and i read the translation of his songs , he insulting KPM.whats wrong with him? have you ever heard "kerana nyamuk seekor, sekelambu dibakar?" i sniffed a sense of arrogant here.if you really and badly want to fight for justice , do it wisely.write a letter to any editorial instead.
for those out there,who really think you are just people & want to uphold the equality , respect and justice , be aware : never ever to condone any racism , whether fully, or partially.it is either rascism or non-racism.sadly,it is easier said than done.
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