this is my 3rd sequel from the mental lexicon saga ( too old to heart cullen).the mental lexicon I was abandoned because of the slow server.the mental lexicon II is-now-defunct simply because i lost the password and can't login.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

happy dakwah ii : dakwah thru music

i saw new combustion of songs with good message in current situation.credited to my husband who sometimes tuning to Hot fm to cease all the sleepy-ness caused by boring discussion on

i didnt take a hard or syadid stand when it comes to entertainment although me myself are not a keen music listener (except for samy yusuf.he is god-sent to us!!*alamak terikut gaya wan azizah plak da)
i believe in self-control and wasatiyyah is indeed important when handling mubah cases.

several new songs like kekanda adinda by monoloque & atilia , is for me a very good song with very good message for facing the increasing of divorces among Malaysian. the song beautifully potrayed dilemma of a wife in choosing a career or starting a family. well,of course, argument is mostly there in any marriage.and the solution stated on the song among others : mari kita komunikasi. (let us communicate)

then, the song by suhaimi meor hassan & anna not sure the title but the lyrics advised the unmarried couple to avoid being overboard. : jangan pegang2 jalan renggang2 (dont touch each other , walk apart)
again, during the wave of baby dumping season, this song at least tickling the sense of coupling people who listen to this kind of music.

and the maher zain's craze is indeed one very good way introducing nasyeed to youngsters who shying themselves to this kind of genre.they started to sang the dzikr and dua which for me something that we should be happy to see it.imagine this : youngster who never knew arabic words and rarely in touch with islam, suddenly utter the Barakallahu lakuma wa barakah..subhanallah, i hope they will find the meaning and ALLAH gives hidayah to them.

again...dakwah is indeed has vast method and approach.think of our mad'u (the people we want to dakwah) and we should try our best to actually tackling them.if music can do it, let it be.make the music more meaningful and full of naseehah (advice) and let them infuse with good word such as dzikr,dua from the song.
me, myself re-treasured the beautiful of islam thru music too! i'tiraf by raihan.masyaAllah, i turned to a new leaf, from people who sometimes neglecting islam to fully commit to it.

dont just talk.walk the talk.

Saturday, December 25, 2010


i might say, i have good quality in fashion department. although im having a 'zuhd' life nowadays (hehe) but seriously, it doesnt kill my fashion fact im made a good fashion police.people can judge me.

but am not putting my focus on fashion.i just wear abaya & shayl.i said JUST.not for any other reason.i wear it for it modesty & comfort.i prefer a toned down design & fact,the minimal it is the more i like it.
the era of fashionista on me had faded (lol!!budget artis hollywood?)

so now, i became bored to visit fashion-based sites.furthermore yg ada abaya-based.kalau jual xpa set yg fashion2.kalau nk berlebih2 sgt,sy takkan berabaya.saya pakai je kaftan.maybe kita patut dengar balik perkataan TABARRUJ la kot.

yeah.back to normal life: game..kehkehkeh

Friday, December 24, 2010

my kid is the best?

i cant stand it.many parents want their child to be gifted. a child is a gifted in natural way. if you learn how children acquire their life skills , youll be amazed! thats how ALLAH plan the best for these cute creatures!
i read on paper, an actress said her 6months old baby can 1 year old can read.aiyooo!!be it. this is extreme cases.

my response was: god blimey!! i believe in the natural (fitrah) can guided the development but not forcing or exerting it.every child is unique & special.enjoy the moments with them.feeding too much cognitive inputs without taking any consideration of others input ,e.g., communication,social,motor is not a good thing to do.

Friday, December 17, 2010

mom & career

work with passion.thats the key.if you are a career mom, enjoice it.bear in mind, you are working to gain His pleasure by helping your family economy and society. if you think that way, ALLAH, the most merciful & compassionate will give the best for you in return. dont feel upset for not having enough time with your kids. instead, grab the most time you with quality is really a quality not quantity that the kids treasured.

if not,you felt grumpy on the less-time spent on your kids, take bold action.quit and find something you enjoy doing a SOHO mom or full-time homemaker. by doing that, your niah of working because of Him are not betrayed. think about thousand of people who really badly needs your job.if you loss passion on it,leave it and stop whining.

there is choice in our life.sometimes, we cant have it all perfect.we need to balance.feel guilty wont help either.taking bold action that truly satisfy your innerself is the only solution.otherwise it just covering the surface of the issues.


Wednesday, December 15, 2010

open up

i cant stand people who blasting all things from west are bad and came with hidden agenda. there are some bloc of people who abstain themselves from having vaccination and avoiding any kind of family planning based on "that's Jews agenda". OMG!(reminder: this pillow talks applicable for married couples.i didnt condone any illegal sexual intercourse among muslim (read:ZINA) in facts i hate that so much)

did you know that, medical advancement is a gift from God? it is really up to us to think which is good and which is our country, the rate of maternal & infant fatality are dropped and among the lowest in the region.why? because of the quality offered by the health service in our country; in which includes proper ante-natal care and post natal care.we have vaccination fro examples Rubella,HPV,UTT; which is helps on diminishing the risk of fatality during pregnancy. these vaccine also helped by promising better health and preventing any worst case.

what i cant stand is,when people kept condemning, this is all the agenda from jews to ruin the muslims.i see this ante-natal care is a good way of taking yourself during prevents you from having any complication later on.

and talking about married woman, contraception is a hit among us. if you want many kids go ahead.dont blame people who use contraception. there is no wrong for married couples to plan their family. see what happened now? we are good in quantity but somehow it doesnt translate into quality. even in Islam, breastfeeding is encouraged until 2 years old because it is good way of family planning (i think that is why ALLAH stated 2 years, so that you can continue bear a child later on.2 years are ideal for next baby, i guess.again,this is what the muslim scientist should study.there is always an idea on what ALLAH said).
even among the sahabah of prophet Muhammad saw, practiced azal (ejaculated outside the vagina) to prevent pregnancies.

i didnt know what to say.sometimes we need to open up a lil have internet, use it to find info.

Monday, December 13, 2010


the crisis is over.everybody learnt a lesson. ALLAH gave us the hardship, so that we treasured Him for the relief.


i often involved on heated discussion. be it on the real life or the virtual one. it is not that i am a person who likes to argue. it is more to "i am a person who loves to voice my controversial and critical opinions".*dang.but again, i speak the not going to argue something which is not based on the scientific findings or the documented just wasted my time to be indulged on some hearsay * i sound like a lawyer?

malaysia is a place where we breed timid people who often hiding their views and opinions. we are society that shaped up by 'keep quiet' is the best. however, this situation is true to the extend of the real world. but in virtual life, we can be that nasty and whatchamacalit?*coward.well,it is not a weird Malay society, the rising usage of black magic or sihr is one of the best evidence on how coward Malay is.we tend to have sweet talk, polite attitude in front but the bad,evil and yucky heart inside.then we sorted to the black magic to fail our hated people's life.

ok.back to the real issues on being might saying that,i am indeed a person who a bit stubborn and as long as people can provide an evidence on what am saying is rubbish, ill fight for it until the just my nature that, am not easily give up.often, i view some issues 1000 years ahead * exaggerating at this point.i always look some issue from many perspectives. from my personal psycho-profile, i am blessed with high empathy; in which explaining on why i always put my self on other's heels*kiddink.suppose shoes.

but,am not malaysia,politician or people who joined the politic wagon,no matter how many doctoral dissertation they have, they tended to slip their mind and suddenly became a monkey.*thanks my ex-schoolmate,arif atan on this idea.they cant stand the heated arguments with rational and clear conscience.resulting on bad-mouthing which actually make a fool of themselves.and at the same time, this kind of people is dreaming of leading the country?my saying is : pah (which is a gesture indicating no in deaf)
you can lead a country.planet of the apes, might suit you.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

ust azizan razak

MB Kedah Ustaz Azizan mmg pandai berpolitik. Susah media nk eksploit dia. Kalau taknak media eksploit, mungkin pimpinan PR yg lain boleh blajar dari dia.

itu pendapat saya. bila ada isu di bangkitkan , pihak PR akan ckp ini mainan media saja. jgn pedulikan. masalahnya, jika kita sendiri tak hati2 begitula. kene pandai la perbaik damage mcm ust azizan.
masalahnya lagi, ramai je pimpinan ...PR lain yg melatah menari berjoget dgn isu tu. amacam? boleh terima?

Friday, December 10, 2010

go diego go!!

my research fields involved special children. betcha! they are awesome! it teaches me to be grateful with what ALLAH gives me. i also met great Deaf who really makes me so determined in my life. One Deaf lady is doing her PhD in UM and alumnus of Gallaudet Univ. in America (hey,that's the prestigious school for deaf studies!).
if they can do it, why cant we?

Saturday, December 4, 2010

bun in an oven?

im waiting for my viva.and i received positive feedback from Prof. L in the Netherlands on being my future SV for my doctoral.and i am thinking of applying permanent with U*M

and my husband has been offered by Kedah government to set up a marketing centre for IKS products.means that it is easier to stay in northern area.My husband asked me to apply permanent job in U*M and doing my doctoral there. But he asked me to wait and rest for at least half years before proceeding my study. AND he hinted for the 4th child.actually he said this for 4 times.

deep inside,yes it sadden me.i have my own dream.and it is actually 15% completed to be reality.and we are still negotiating on this.

ALLAH,please guide me.

Friday, December 3, 2010

trivial & substantial

ok.let me myself clear.the following rant is not intended to hurt is general is my little knowledge ALLAH gave me through my humble learning from ustaz2 & ustazah.WARNING: if you are sensitive dont read.i use the humour approach on this that you wont be burden reading it.happy reading!!

i give you two condition.
  1. on women's bloody issue (no pun intended!)-all that menses (haidh), postpartum bleeding (nifas) and wiladah.
  2. what colors my stockin *(OMK! i didnt remember how to spell it in english) should be?

let we slowly delve into this matter by answering these questions:
1) which one is more important?
2) which one is involving major impact and judgment in Islam?

if your answer is 1 = excellent! you know what matter most
but if you answer 2 = ok. dont you have any other important thing to do *or at least to ask? or to think?

proceed with analysing
no 1 = woman menstrual cycles and nifas and wiladah are among important things that we should make ourselves very clear and understand it deeply.the reason: it is correlated with the whole of your life.

you might ask? how is it so?i have regular menses every months.
i will said,it is important to know too.because youll never know when your auntie menses will going crazy and cycling all through the month.

haidh,nifas and wiladah are too much related to our ibadah. when you want to perform solah, you must be clean from haidh,nifas & wiladah.the same goes to fasting,hajj & umrah.if your auntie M suddenly going mad and cycling non-stop..wait!! dont easily said it is istihadhah.

besides calculating the cycle, you have to see the colors of your bleeding. if you are really sure it is not haidh you must perform solah and jeng jeng jeng ...proceed to the next level ------>

and also sexual intercourse with your husband.if you are having istihadhah, your husband has right and not haram for having sex with you.and this blood issue extends to divorce & iddah.talaq is done if you havent have any jimak with your wife and she has her menses (the reason: so that she will not be preggy after you divorce her and prolonged the iddah).iddah,on the other hands, 3 times of suci from haidh.

ok is your perception about your menses.complicated isnt it?it DOES surely involved those haram,halal issues right?

analysing no 2
what colors my stockin *(socks) should be?

first of all.socks issue is khilaf.imam hanafi said it is no harm of exposing your feet.ok we going deeper.

other imam said feet should be doesnt matter using can be by lowering your clothes so that your feet is hiding or wear islam,this is what we call the flexibility.but since we are in malaysia, mostly followed mazhab syafiee, we are required to cover the feet.but why asking colors? honestly, i havent think about it.when my mental awareness digesting the info from those series of kuliyyah,i know the clothes should not be tight and i wear a thick sock which is of course didnt show my skin fact i wear it in a beige *which is considered as skin colours in clothes term.

and my q: does it involves major hukum here?
the answer is up to is can choose it.i cant stop you from choosing your choice.and so do mine.

do you know that, bani israel is a follower who burden with heavy syariat?why?because they keep asking trivial things and burdening themselves unnecessarily when there is an easy way stated by surah al will know how their attitude is.

as for me : ISLAM is is a very easy doesnt burden the followers.and why must we wasting ourselves thinking and discussing something trivial whereas lot of major things we have to think and do?divert those energy by preaching and reaching 75% malaysian muslim who dont perform solah rather than indulging on the khilafiyah issues.learn some awlawiyyah.together,we create biah solehah!

wallahualam.may ALLAH pardon me for all my wrongdoings.

notes: this is not an is my approach on telling my dearest sis & bro which one is more important